423: What if you were lured into an unspeakable hell? [Rebroadcast #172]
Summary
Host Whit Misselbein announces a Substack rebranding and a live event with guest Star Spider before rebroadcasting a 2020 episode. The story details a woman’s childhood sexual assault, her decades of repression, and a subsequent psychotic break involving hallucinations. Through trauma therapy, she confronts her past and integrates dissociated parts of her psyche to heal from PTSD.
Topics discussed
Intro, Substack event, and episode context
Sponsors: Capital One and 7th Generation
Childhood in West Texas and moving to Houston
Middle school, first kiss, and meeting a new friend
The abduction and sexual assault in the bathroom
Dissociation, shame, and returning home
Suppressing the memory and immediate aftermath
Developing anxiety and phobias in middle school
Identity changes, abusive marriage, and divorce
Financial ruin, chronic headaches, and hallucinations
The 'demon,' self-harm, and hospitalization
The memory surfaces and PTSD diagnosis
Therapy, integration, and the 'Holder' alter
Meeting 'Mask' and processing family trauma
Returning shame to perpetrators and self-compassion
Hope, support system, and reclaiming identity
Outro, credits, and subscription info
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